vanity

Hi, I'm Kris.

I feel fortunate that I am able to go back and read autobiographies I've written since I was 16. It's really interesting to read what I thought was worth knowing about myself. Shows I watched that I don't even remember, crushes I barely recall, friends I'd give anything to have in my life again.

In these last twelve years I've written dozens of these autobiographies and as I get older, they seem so much harder to write. I feel like I've run out of ways to talk about myself in an interesting [okay, not really] way. Is that weird? Oh well.

Miss Jupiter

For ten years at the center of my life, I had everyone thinking my name was Zoe [it's a long story :)]. I live in Pittsburg, California, about an hour from San Francisco. I have long, glittery fingernails, 4 gauge holes in my ears, and a Depeche Mode tattoo. My hair is dark brown with pink streaks, my eyes are blue, and freckles run freely across my nose and cheeks. Outside my home, I'm usually in a long sleeved black shirt and jeans. If I'm indoors with no plans to go out, I'm usually in pajama pants.

Though always in black with the pink hair, stretched lobes, and tattoo, I am not a goth, a punk, or emo. I am almost 30, and I am done playing around with stereotypes. I had my fun with that in high school.

It makes me feel extremely old to write that.

Kinda Sickly, But Not Really

Throughout my life, I have actually been known to some for my headaches. In elementary school, I was sent home early every other week. I was diagnosed with migraines at 6, but in my teen years the headaches got worse. Each year, around March, I'd wake up one morning with a pounding headache that wouldn't go away until mid-April. At 19, I had double vision for a few weeks, then at 24, I started going blind in my right eye. I was unofficially diagnosed with Psuedotumor Cerebri / Intracaranial Hypertension, but I "recovered" before I could be formally tested, and haven't had any serious symptoms [other than the headaches] since.

Online Presence

Back in the day, I went by Arazyre, Zodiacia, canista1kyou, synthpopgirl, Bubbles, Zoe1134, and god knows what else. Heh. Nowadays I go by myjupiterstar, jupiterstar, jupiter, joopeetah, astrangemagic, and onesummerdream.

I've been around for over ten years, but never really had much of a presence online [to anyone but myself and a few friends, at least]. I wasn't innovative or damaged enough to make a dent in the "teen domain" world in the late 90s. I'm not obsessed enough with anything I like to matter to, or even really get along with, the fandom-crazed. I don't get to experiance hilarious adventures with every breath I take, and even if I did, I'm a lousy writer, so I'll never be a famous or even mediocrely-known blogger. I get like 30 hits a month, and that's totally fine with me. I use my webspace more for downloads, fanlistings, storage, and my Erasure page, anyway :)

Somewhere along the way, I drifted apart from all the wonderful people I met online, a group so tight I practically had to fight to find a way in. I'm sad that I let myself lose them. It has happened in real life as well, so I accept that I am to blame, though I still have no idea why.

Married Life

I'm married to a rather spiffy young man named Dan, who I met on a music message board [if you know me at all, that probably doesn't suprised you one bit]. He used to be a vet, but became injured on the job in '06 and has been walking with a cane ever since. He drums, loves cars, and spends about 90% of his free time playing MMORPGs.

We do not live the typical married life. We're not typical people, and did not magically become the typical husband and wife as we signed our marriage licsense. Our wedding was at a park, next to a playground. I wore a shirt I'd had for two years and a red skirt. And boots. I wouldn't have changed a thing.

Job-Stuff

I work at a beauty supply shop, but I used to be a cake decorator at an ice cream store. To say I miss that job is a huge understatement -- I crave it. I have dreams about it. I miss it so much I could cry. But I'm too scared to apply at local stores. I'm afraid of the rejection. And I'm afraid that I may have burned a few bridges on my way out the first time.

Free Time

I like to make earrings, which can become a pretty expensive hobby if you're not making money off your creations. I have every intention to sell the hundreds of pairs I've made, I'm just still afraid to. It's sort of like how I'm afraid to go find a cake gig. I'd hate to put myself out there and be disapointed.

I mess around on Neopets here and there, and I can easily spend hours playing Sim City. I've had a girl-hardon for anything map related my whole life, and every big advancement in arial photography is like a wetdream come true to me. For the record, I prefer grids, but I can't help but dream of living in a huge swirling suburb [like you'd find just outside Las Vegas -- *swoon*].

I also love geocaching and bike riding, but only when the weather is perfect ;)

My newest stupid obsession hobby is nail art. I guess working where I work, it was inevitable. I'm into rather simple things, and I show most of the off at Sparklaaay.

Random Leftovers

I love stars, fall and spring, and 80s nostalgia. Dr Pepper runs through my veins. I wish it could be 1994 every year. I am anti PETA, pro choice, pro gay marriage, pro Martha Stewart. I am a Firefox and Trillian snob. My second harddrive is named after Walter Egan, and my third harddrive is named after Rebbie Jackson. I don't forgive or forget. I love fanlistings, and I'm a TFL Trouble Checker. I abhor celebrity worship, Jerusalem crickets, and the fact that Tinkerbell, of all people, is like a hero of half of the female population. I try as hard as I can to avoid trends, fads, and hype. I reject the concept of "fandom"... I like what I like, not much more to that :)

Visuals I Like

Comedy Central, Court TV, Food Network, HGTV, VH1 Classic. Comedy, drama, forensics, sketch & standup comedy. Cold Case, Criminal Minds, CSI, House, Kids in the Hall, Law & Order SVU, Psych, Robot Chicken, Without A Trace.

Audio I Like

Synthpop music makes me a very very happy girl :) The rundown: Music with blips, bleeps, and bloops. 80s, 90s alternative, new wave, disco, freestyle, SYNTHPOP! Abba, Alice in Chains, Boingo, Blue October [uk], Camouflage, Cause and Effect, Collective Soul, Confessions of a Star, Cosmicity, David Garza, Depeche Mode, Duran Duran, ELO, Erasure, Green Day, Iris, Mesh, OMD, Pet Shop Boys, Pink Floyd, Provision, Red Flag, Seven Red Seven, Suede, Tears For Fears, VNV Nation.